When the high sex drive Capricorn meet the low sex drive Cancerian

Now look,i can not NOT write journal,coz i need somewhere to write down all the stuffs that i wanna remember.
and so it begins again.

Today Jais and I went through a emotional roller coast.
Ok see,im the type of person that really HATES disappointment,especially when i had planned or just wanna have a good day.
maybe i REALLY did misheard the whole thing that he did not have his trial in the morning,but still it sucks.Coz i really just wanna have a FULL day with him.

and so the whole date goes like this <:)/:(/:)/:(/:)>

look,i really wants him to sign up for the club if chances come.coz i know it means alot to him,and makes life much easier for him as well.
but then...time is the compromising thing.and this sucks if we couldnt have a full date.this is a selfish thought and so i drove that thought away.

Yng is right,coz when i starts working,i wouldnt have time for him either.and so we are the type of couples that "no matter how tired you are, you gotta make time to meet"

but now as i think of it...this whole feeling just sucks.which probably explain the second time i sulks so badly and..Dear Dear...im so sorry that i made you cry.

I was so scared that you wanna just walk up and leave me at the foodcourt just now.
but you know..im the type of gal that cant express herself verbally very well.alot of times,i just keep mum which i know furstrates you alot.

so back to my worries...just imagine..if i got a job then.hes studying.so we probably wont meet in the day.and then he got training in the evening...how are we ever gonna meet up den.

gosh..we are only 20 years old and our relationship is barely 10 months old..why is it so difficult?
it just poses more challenges and the whole thing just seem so perilous.

by the end of the day...i really hate him to leave me and secretly wish he just wont go to the training.but i know its not possible so i did alot of things just to stall time.opps..sorry dear. but the kissing was enjoyable,especially the one when we are walking through the "alley", and you pop me a sudden kiss.
i would say that is so sexy and intriguing.


and so thats my worries and so the dark future.
seriously i hate when i think that long too.

gotta write down to remind myself what am i gonna blog next session.
till then.